Here i finally i'm, at my relaties girlfriend's place, i dunno pretty awesome here, alot of conversations and chats about old thigs and stuff like that. First time in my life i actually tryed tequilea LOL, yeah laugh now! i just drinked like 3 bears, this is my 4th . orry to everyone i made a dissapointed i just had a perfect place to spend my night, i can fucking roll now lol .
I got free food LOL, ´many people here who i actually know, someone i got to know.
I wiah that someone else would be here with me, feel kinda stucky since i'm drunk, abit LOL, i have many typijng mistakes def... so do not fucking laugh about that, i like it.
ok there's even a dog called ''eddy''' lol, someone gave him like 3 apples what are totally waisted rofl , i was like laughing like hell, this was something else entirely .
Usually if i type here something i think before i do it, this time, i'm not thinking anythinbg ki'm just typing like hell lol.
oh, i'm sooooooooo waisted rolf. I hear somebody screaming: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, don't fooooooooo iy.... dont doo it. Actujallly very awesome i'm so lol . LOL WER LIKE 9 together AND I HEARD THAT SOMEONE IOS already sleepiong . Lol thatswhy i wondered where that guy had dissaperaed, too much alcohol i guess. Anywayz i'm intending to .. WHAT THE FUCK, somebody is listening to a song called '' emo, emo, schneider ROFL.''
BTW someone just let his hair coloured green, reallly ffunnnnnnnnnn, means amo cutter or something, haven't heard anything like this before. Wonder where Sander is, oh, the dog started barking again rofl, making really evil voice while doing it, i'm kinda confused through that shit, too much thingsd at once to write. Now someone is yelling ''MUFFIN'' . oh, god, they restarted the whole song, i so hate it, it's german, even tho i like german i hate the stupid song, sad i can't do anything about that stupid shit-.-
aNYWAYs today took place that festival called '' RUTS - fest '' i had a relative with me SAnder, atb was boring, after things went ionteresting, Hendrik was also with us, i really liked most of the songs, besied of the ones ''band HANK '' reallt gay songs lo,, hate them, wanted to rape and kill that bastrad who madew them. fuck him .
Eda, Merli whoever else called me in meantime, prolly wanted smoke only, yeah, was cool
OOOOOOOOOOOH, must go!!!!!!! byezzzzzzzzzzzzzz
stay dark
Blogi.
okay, sorry for not updating this blog for like ... over a month, this place is too booring for me lately. Just wandered outside with my relative Sander, we didn't smoke or drink or anything, just chill .
okay, i have had LOTS AND LOTS of drinking smoking on the meantime, i met a girl who's from canada, we had a nice time, chatted with her about everything, oh yeah.
we had an argue about that women often talk about one thing then another and another and they come back to the first point maiby ... ever . Was the only argue we had, was kinda funny how i met with her, 7~9 august or something.
Day began like this, woke up like 9am´, dressed myself, both cigs and 1 bottle of vodka <<< schoolbag. Sanders' dad gave us a ride to Hellerys place, went there, met eachother, smoked, talked. Then we went off her grannys place chilled around Ulila, and we couldn't open the vodka bottle, wierd shit. Finally got it loose, we started to search another spot to drink, on the way we talked about canadian highways and shit. Sander managed to DROP OUR VODKA onto the ground, broke it . Hellery told that in their country, canada, vodka costs about 300 kroons(30dol) so if someone breaks someones else's vodka, then they get beaten up. Kay, i was mad, i was very angry .. wanted to kill san. We started heading back, w/o vodka. I asked Hellery if she has any estonian monay with her, so she had about 1000 kroons, gave me 100, on meantime her dog got loose and it damaged my bag, our juice was totally fucked up, my whole schoolbag was floating ..... so fucking fail. So we bought another vodka and another juice, mixed it up and drinked it. Finally = WIN .
After that day i have walked to Hellerys place like 10km ... a day ... went there almost evey day.
K, that's it about her.
I have played lots of volleyball. I have been totally drunk about 3-4 times this month, prolly will be the last month when i drink this year that much.
Lol it remembers me one night, when i headed back to home with Hendrik.
I went home, threup up, started cooking lol. Next morning i found my mobile phone from the fridge ... sick, next day went to visit Hellery with a hangover x'D
oh okay, my post is now done, seeya when i get time to blog.
btw, Karl and Dorrit, HURRAAA!
hey hey you, the one whose looking down
you think ''too much'' about ur life
than anything else on the whole world
you let yourself and other people down
when you say hi you see them smile
but inside you it wont change anything at all
you always look ur life through the crystal ball
i want you to walk far away
in time for a day
then you have an oppurtunity
to manifest yourself, yourself, yourself ..
i wont last any longer cause ur so hollow
u have fallen too much away
nothing can be saved
theres no hope no hope at all
you have no idea how much i tryed
you have no idea how much i lied
i made a mistake by chosing you
i want go back in time
and so would you
you fail you cannot be true
you yes you are the one who turns yourself into dust
and many other several forms
you're running in lost
empty space is no more longer needed
you tare apart everything you succeeded
listen to me and kill yourself now
your so full of fail on the day we both say hey
every day you're asking how ?
how it can be true ? that i always fail
how can someone like me even exist
i wont last any longer cause ur so hollow
u have fallen too much away
nothing can be saved
theres no hope no hope at all
you have no idea how much i tryed
you have no idea how much i lied
i made a mistake by chosing you
i want go back in time
and so would you
you fail you cannot be true
hey hey you yes the one who's looking to the sky
you think that god can stop you from being real?
you always knew that this day will arrive
you always knew that we r two
one of us is going down
and that is you
you know it's true
i wont last any longer cause ur so hollow
u have fallen too much away
nothing can be saved
theres no hope no hope at all
you have no idea how much i tryed
you have no idea how much i lied
i made a mistake by chosing you
i want go back in time
and so would you
you fail you cannot be true
you drown yourself into your dreams
even you know it won't save you from realms
more and more shadows you will start to see
less you care about the conditions you feel
sleeping, it's your deepest reality
killing, another insanity
falling, another step away from humanity
drowning dreams, they are more than infinity
you think you can walk down to ur fantasy?
and take the legacy!?
No! because you need to read the policy
before killing the entity
in you, what you need to get rid of really!
there are no lines or barriers
you are just one of those carriers
whose burden is easily sinking
into the rivers where poor ones are drinking
sleeping, it's your deepest reality
killing, another insanity
falling, another step away from humanity
drowning dreams, they are more than infinity
you think you can walk down to ur fantasy?
and take the legacy!?
No! because you need to read the policy
before killing the entity
in you, what you need to get rid of really!
counting realms, in ur dreams
have become an addiction
hollow places in you paralized mind
eating ur affiction
dream on, this is the only way
out of this raging hell
or you will be similiar to those who fell
sleeping, it's your deepest reality
killing, another insanity
falling, another step away from humanity
drowning dreams, they are more than infinity
you think you can walk down to ur fantasy?
and take the legacy!?
No! because you need to read the policy
before killing the entity
in you, what you need to get rid of really!
Those lies, those hopeless tries
when i try to talk to you
you're ignoring, you're ripping me apart
and then you turn your back on me while hazart
thinking all the time you're smart ?
i cannot ignore you anymore
Why do u always try to take me down with you ?
How can't you just śee the real me ?
Is there anywhere any hope ?!
I just need you to see
whó i really want to be
you see ? i'm fallin' down
be happy, you can wear the crown
after i will push you back down
and laugh while you drown
this is hard for me, will be harder for you
you destroy every hope i can ever make true
everything is now freaking blue
please give me a clue
then i can speak to you while we bloom
I'm lost, everything on the path has turned to dust
everything good is now bloodlust
you clear everything inside me, you must
to break me and then enjoy your big blast
why do u always ignore everything i try to proove?
why do u always push me out of your way of zoom ?
Why do u always try to take me down with you ?
How can't you just śee the real me ?
Is there anywhere any hope ?!
I just need you to see
whó i really want to be
you see ? i'm fallin' down
be happy, you can wear the crown
after i will push you back down
and laugh while you drown
this is hard for me, will be harder for you
you destroy every hope i can ever make true
everything is now freaking blue
please give me a clue
then i can speak to you while we bloom
Is there every any hope ?
Please give me, if you got
Otherwise i fall, never rise up
with you or without
i will always be apart
thanks to you, who just tried being smart
at the isle of the strongest love
flowers bloom
before the day of doom
others will arrive
and do everything to survive
they'll come on the darkest day
when everyone start to pray
They know that this day
can easily be their doomsday
searching hope
devil might they find
they don't leave even if they see the sign
of the darkest devil
who seeks and destroys everything
on their minds are thoughts of golden rings
keeping every coin
thinking if they save
they will live in vain
Legend says that before the rain
strangers fall down and feel the pain
they know that easily it can be their doomsday
but their minds are still full of pride and credit
should be many things what need them to edit
They know that this day
can easily be their doomsday
searching hope
devil might they find
they don't leave even if they see the sign
of the darkest devil
who seeks and destroys everything
on their minds are thoughts of golden rings
keeping every coin
thinking if they save
they will live in vain
Wierd things chasing after them
they took someone's gem
what lied upon a curse
what is coming is way worse
they die, and there's nothing what they can do
decide
between suicide
or pride and credit ?
on a meaningless world ...
They know that this day
can easily be their doomsday
searching hope
devil might they find
they don't leave even if they see the sign
of the darkest devil
who seeks and destroys everything
on their minds are thoughts of golden rings
keeping every coin
thinking if they save
they will live in vain