okkayes, ima gonna start talking about Ann's birthday.
I went there with Raul. At first we planned to go there w/ Hendrik and Raul. But yeah
Hendrik was far away. Okay there were already people when we actually arrived there, we bought a Scottish Leader as her birthday present. We started drinking it as soon as i got there, then other people arrived. We tryed to watch tv but yeah, at the first place we didn't find the remote. After some searching i found it. Then other new people came in. There were many people i didn't know, most of them i got to know during the party. Ok everything started peacefully, we ate chips laughed. At the first i was moving around all the time, when i was drinking i just tryed toshow up on some pictures so i could see them later. I made some, some pics i won't reveal = iz top secret . Okay everything went on as it would be normal, some people were already fading off :D
I remember that there was much disko :D a room designed for it. So someone went added some metal :D:D: was ultra cool. Even my neck and shoulders hurt as hell due that shit .
K my bro called me and showd up in that party with his car, i actually saw his girlfriend over a long long time. He bought me a pack of cigarettes, dunno why lol . Ok i told him but, yeah i smoked only 2 of them and gave it away . He brought me back i went back inside.
Then Älis made me some dinner lol. Thank you :D
We made our own vodka mix called MEHU :D it was like ultra cool. But kinda strong .
Okayes then someone whose name i should'nt mention here started to bother Hendrik, he bopthered him like 2 hours in a row so noone could sleep. There was a girl, who locked herself into a room so she could sleep and noone would bother her. But that '' someone '' didn't let her sleep, coz that someone laughed so hard. I told Ann to get me to that girls room so i could sleep. I went there sleeping.
I woke up she gave me a ride home .
Okay and finally i got to sleep yesterday, now im gonna read a book soon . Atm im chit chatting with d..* . Iz nice. But byebye! stay dark
Blogi.
turns out that i can't go to that party.
1.) i have no transport and i'm not walking back with yalkswagen like i did it the last time.
2. ) Sander aint going to pay me anything coz he's father aint have any kind of cash atm.
3. ) I had a strange feeling about this anyway, and i'm not feeling untouched or anything coz i was invited but i just can't go .
Ann's birthday is upcoming, so i have to save my cash to that day .
I was at my friends Kaarels' place, we chit chatted about many things and we were just fooling around. Mostly we played cards and chit chatted while doing it .
Now again i'm bored, guess if i don't have anything to do i'm going back to Kaarels' place, i got some activity in there. And i can't be in internet also coz Sander is off in a party.
oh god, what should i do now /:
This sux to say it but, bye bye! atleast for now . Stay Dark .
Well, since my uber-mini plans r different now i'm intending to watch jackass number 2 and jackass 2009 with my relative who's in the bathroom washing himself and his clothes :D
I have all nite long to watch it (;
I would remain in msn but my relative won't allow me to /: so i'm fucked. not literally but yeah basicly :D
okay i'm sending a message to d....*, hopefully ic her at the msn pretty soon yeah :D
i dun't have much time >.< !
okayes there might be a party tomorrow where my relative wants me to go, i'm not sure, be he allowed to pay everything so i could go there o.O .
Well if someones needs Matis, Matis always goes there and helps the poor guy out .
I'm kinda stress out on these days, i don't know why. Something always fucks me up, i'm so pissed of coz of meaningless reasons.
Matis iz out, goodbye
okayez, since i haven't blogged for like 3-4 months, i'll start blogging again .(yes, if i want a medal, i know someone who could give it to me).
Nothing much has really changed, everything i do is going forward like i have done it in the past. In some things i'm smarter now, esp in relationships and shit like that.
My grades in school are much better than i had last year in ninth grade, tho it's much harder than it was in ninth grade. I'm still same lazy as i was back then. I think i'm much smarter now ... thanks alcohol <3
About drinking i've drunk like nine fridays in a row, sadly this has to stop now. I'm going do to this for my own good. Hopefully i'm not going to lose any of my friends coz of that but yeah, i don't want alcohol anymore. Ann's birthay is upcoming this saturday tho, but yeah i wont drink there, my first test, hopefully my last (:!
about sad emo part. My family is still pretty much the same :D mom is nutz like alwayys, dad is ignoring me, sander makes me dinner, i'm at sans place mostly at nights, i can chat with d..* all nite long, if her one day ticker w/e aint going out/:. Ivo is in high sc´hool/college w/e .
Pass these days i have been chatting with d..* nights and days long, indeed i'm doing it right now lol. We're mostly talking about things what don't exist .. but it's hell fucking funny lol .
She knows my every single password /: but if i forget them someday, if i end up in a hospital i can always ask her :D_________________________________________________goodbye, STAY DARK!___________________________
Here i finally i'm, at my relaties girlfriend's place, i dunno pretty awesome here, alot of conversations and chats about old thigs and stuff like that. First time in my life i actually tryed tequilea LOL, yeah laugh now! i just drinked like 3 bears, this is my 4th . orry to everyone i made a dissapointed i just had a perfect place to spend my night, i can fucking roll now lol .
I got free food LOL, ´many people here who i actually know, someone i got to know.
I wiah that someone else would be here with me, feel kinda stucky since i'm drunk, abit LOL, i have many typijng mistakes def... so do not fucking laugh about that, i like it.
ok there's even a dog called ''eddy''' lol, someone gave him like 3 apples what are totally waisted rofl , i was like laughing like hell, this was something else entirely .
Usually if i type here something i think before i do it, this time, i'm not thinking anythinbg ki'm just typing like hell lol.
oh, i'm sooooooooo waisted rolf. I hear somebody screaming: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, don't fooooooooo iy.... dont doo it. Actujallly very awesome i'm so lol . LOL WER LIKE 9 together AND I HEARD THAT SOMEONE IOS already sleepiong . Lol thatswhy i wondered where that guy had dissaperaed, too much alcohol i guess. Anywayz i'm intending to .. WHAT THE FUCK, somebody is listening to a song called '' emo, emo, schneider ROFL.''
BTW someone just let his hair coloured green, reallly ffunnnnnnnnnn, means amo cutter or something, haven't heard anything like this before. Wonder where Sander is, oh, the dog started barking again rofl, making really evil voice while doing it, i'm kinda confused through that shit, too much thingsd at once to write. Now someone is yelling ''MUFFIN'' . oh, god, they restarted the whole song, i so hate it, it's german, even tho i like german i hate the stupid song, sad i can't do anything about that stupid shit-.-
aNYWAYs today took place that festival called '' RUTS - fest '' i had a relative with me SAnder, atb was boring, after things went ionteresting, Hendrik was also with us, i really liked most of the songs, besied of the ones ''band HANK '' reallt gay songs lo,, hate them, wanted to rape and kill that bastrad who madew them. fuck him .
Eda, Merli whoever else called me in meantime, prolly wanted smoke only, yeah, was cool
OOOOOOOOOOOH, must go!!!!!!! byezzzzzzzzzzzzzz
stay dark
okay, sorry for not updating this blog for like ... over a month, this place is too booring for me lately. Just wandered outside with my relative Sander, we didn't smoke or drink or anything, just chill .
okay, i have had LOTS AND LOTS of drinking smoking on the meantime, i met a girl who's from canada, we had a nice time, chatted with her about everything, oh yeah.
we had an argue about that women often talk about one thing then another and another and they come back to the first point maiby ... ever . Was the only argue we had, was kinda funny how i met with her, 7~9 august or something.
Day began like this, woke up like 9am´, dressed myself, both cigs and 1 bottle of vodka <<< schoolbag. Sanders' dad gave us a ride to Hellerys place, went there, met eachother, smoked, talked. Then we went off her grannys place chilled around Ulila, and we couldn't open the vodka bottle, wierd shit. Finally got it loose, we started to search another spot to drink, on the way we talked about canadian highways and shit. Sander managed to DROP OUR VODKA onto the ground, broke it . Hellery told that in their country, canada, vodka costs about 300 kroons(30dol) so if someone breaks someones else's vodka, then they get beaten up. Kay, i was mad, i was very angry .. wanted to kill san. We started heading back, w/o vodka. I asked Hellery if she has any estonian monay with her, so she had about 1000 kroons, gave me 100, on meantime her dog got loose and it damaged my bag, our juice was totally fucked up, my whole schoolbag was floating ..... so fucking fail. So we bought another vodka and another juice, mixed it up and drinked it. Finally = WIN .
After that day i have walked to Hellerys place like 10km ... a day ... went there almost evey day.
K, that's it about her.
I have played lots of volleyball. I have been totally drunk about 3-4 times this month, prolly will be the last month when i drink this year that much.
Lol it remembers me one night, when i headed back to home with Hendrik.
I went home, threup up, started cooking lol. Next morning i found my mobile phone from the fridge ... sick, next day went to visit Hellery with a hangover x'D
oh okay, my post is now done, seeya when i get time to blog.
btw, Karl and Dorrit, HURRAAA!
hey hey you, the one whose looking down
you think ''too much'' about ur life
than anything else on the whole world
you let yourself and other people down
when you say hi you see them smile
but inside you it wont change anything at all
you always look ur life through the crystal ball
i want you to walk far away
in time for a day
then you have an oppurtunity
to manifest yourself, yourself, yourself ..
i wont last any longer cause ur so hollow
u have fallen too much away
nothing can be saved
theres no hope no hope at all
you have no idea how much i tryed
you have no idea how much i lied
i made a mistake by chosing you
i want go back in time
and so would you
you fail you cannot be true
you yes you are the one who turns yourself into dust
and many other several forms
you're running in lost
empty space is no more longer needed
you tare apart everything you succeeded
listen to me and kill yourself now
your so full of fail on the day we both say hey
every day you're asking how ?
how it can be true ? that i always fail
how can someone like me even exist
i wont last any longer cause ur so hollow
u have fallen too much away
nothing can be saved
theres no hope no hope at all
you have no idea how much i tryed
you have no idea how much i lied
i made a mistake by chosing you
i want go back in time
and so would you
you fail you cannot be true
hey hey you yes the one who's looking to the sky
you think that god can stop you from being real?
you always knew that this day will arrive
you always knew that we r two
one of us is going down
and that is you
you know it's true
i wont last any longer cause ur so hollow
u have fallen too much away
nothing can be saved
theres no hope no hope at all
you have no idea how much i tryed
you have no idea how much i lied
i made a mistake by chosing you
i want go back in time
and so would you
you fail you cannot be true