Watch me crumble

Listening to: Adema - Giving In . (http://www.speedyshare.com/211222349.html)
I listened this song this morning and i love it already. Music is perfect. Just listen to it whoever reads this post.

I sat infront of the comp and my brother arrived and the first thing he said to me was, Matis, come we r going to take some sun . I was like oo... alright. So we hanged in Verevi like 3-4 hours. Swam abit and when we made it back i saw that my dad is already here, bu he was already leaving. Didn't talk at all.
And btw i saw Merli*and Eneli on the way, dunno what the hell they were doing :D

I'm sorry that i wrote that less atm, but i'm in a hurry. Adios.

After Slavery

Listening atm: Three days grace - Animal i have become(Silver-tongued Hollow impersonators Impersonator Dollu's idea)

Oh, okay. I woke up like 12:00 AM. Chilled abit in MSN, i saw that Merli was in, she said that she comes to Puhja today. I promesed her to give my mp3-player, i didn't needed it anyway since i can listen my songs on my mobile if i want to hang around somewhere. So we met, gave her my mp3 and I left.
My father promesed to come today AGAIN, another lie, he lied. But i buried that idea by working at my oncles place, even the work was hard i dealed with it.After 5-6 hours of work, we went eating at my oncles place, after eating i went to visit my relative again :D I think hes father wants already to get rid of me xD . But i don't care, free NOLIFE all nite :D
Okay, i went to home for a sec, i saw a very interesting guy on the way, i won't talk about it right now.I ate abit and headed back to my relatives place. Now i'm here, orly :D?
I think i'm going to nolife all nite now, if i get any more idead i'll post them as soon as i can .

Adios Everyone (:

Wierd morning

oh, i'm abit sleepy atm. Since i had a nice chat before and i'm glad i had it. My mom keeps calling since morning like; where the hell are you ? your dad comes soon, go to ur granny's place. But i don't really care if he comes, i see him few times in whole year anyway. I'm kind of a used with it already, long time ago, if i just moved away from him he visited me once in a week, then it started to be once in a month, and now it is once in a year. I've to visit him myself all the time but he always acts like i like i'm not there.So frustrating.

Afriend of mine told me that i should write about my class get-together party, but i don't know, this will be too long... I think i'm gonna do it, but later when the sky goes darker abit.

Today, again at my relatives place, i slept on his sisters bed(she wasn't there ofc :D) but it was much better bed to sleep on, because you can't hear his fathers' noise from here atleast. As soon as his dad left to work, i went to shower :D since we don't have warm water here(due to some pumpwork), they have a boiler atleast.

oh, i'm hell hungry. If i see a cat on the road i will eat him xa0x0axa0 :D Actually i couldn't eat a cat, i'm too weak for that sord of thing.

Well, cheers. See you soon again.

dissapointment

After waiting numerous hours of my parents and after a long time dissapointment i'm finally back here blogging.
I basicly went right outside after chatting with few of my classmates and other chicks.
I could walk few steps away and suddenly it started to rain alot, very perfect timeing, so i started running towards to my relatives place. When i finally made it there, we started thinking what the hell ? let's go out and check out the weather, since the weather was abit thundery. Thunderclouds were very easy to notice, so we just stood there hopeing(can be misspell) that it will hit somewhere. But it didn't, so we were just chilling around, we saw bunch of punks with their bicycles' and we just laughed coz they were so funny to watch at. We made some jokes witch i wouldn't like to point out now.

I was sowannabecool with my new mobile phone and made some pictures, i thought when i grow up then their really awesome to look at, but i accidently deleted them few minutes ago, for real.

Now i'm waiting when Hendriks' fav show ''Home And Away'' ends, then we will gather up some people and chill outside, then i've something to write again.

But yeah, cheers!

Just here, bored.

Since i've to wait for my parents, i'm just chatting in msn listening music on lastfm.com, always cool when you listen something new. I hope that if my parents arrive they don't see my new mobile phone, because i bought it behind their back. They gave me so phatetic phone, it was just so ... so i just had to buy a new one. Thank god i did it, and the choice was right.

My secret hobby: Writing down lyrics, making them up myself, basicly i write down lyrics when i'm really bored and theres nothing much to do. I had to reveal his hobby coz i don't have much to write of right now because my head is empty as the sky right now. I would write some of my lyrics here, but i dont have them with me atm.

God damnit where the hell are my parents, they promesed to come, i've waited them for like 4 hours in a row right now, i wanna go out already . Jesus.

I asked my bros girlfriend, and he responded the following:
Iris　{poes} says:
nad tulevad homme > means that they come tomorrow.

And i waisted most of my time being behind of a computer, what a failure.
I bet that my friends have made their plans right now, what a waste.

Oh, see you in couple of hours. Goodbye

Morning everyone

Mkay, i woke up and i'm hell mad, coz i'm at my relatives place and my relatives father always makes so mutch noise in the kitchen, it's impossible ''not to wake up'' i've no idea how my relative can sleep with it, guess he is used with it already, well i'm not.

Anywayz i hope for a nice weather today, i wanna go and swim abit and .. nah the weather sux, so swimming will be cancelled ): just checked outside, this looks like a cold spring ..

This will be prolly another lame day at home, few hours of pointless messenger chatting and lack of fun. Exactly what i need.

I heard that my father and step-mother are actually coming to visit me, i'll better go to a friends place before they arrive coz of my personal reasons, as soon as i get rid of them i'm back in blogging (: Adios.

Me part One

Basicly i'm paralized inside this soul, theres nothing especial in my life, my life is like a big routine, a small plan witch leads out to nowhere. Ok who am i ? i'm Matis;

I'm not different than any other, i like hanging, drinking and just chilling with my friends, once in a while we have parties, big events, and other routine stuff. I like make as many friends as i can, i think we all do i suppose.
Sometimes witch i really like are events, when some really major band visits this country like Korn did. They should do it more often (: (visiting Estonia)

People who i like; Ultimately friendly, understandable, changeable, real, always there for me.
People who i don't like; People who dont understand/realize who'r their dealing with, unreal, and who think that their only ones in the world who can actually change something.

My way of life: Never surrender. Never change inside. Always Forgive . Hate only yourself, coz this is who you are. Be there for ones, who actually try/Respect the ones, who have changed something, done something good or the ones, who tryed or failed trying.

My Taste of music: Everything what's higher level than rock, basicly Metal types like: Death/Melodic/Gothic Metal.
Bands like: Korn, Red, Darkseed, Avenged Sevenfold, Disturbed, Dope .. etc
I like Metal, coz of the lyrics, so different, so real . Can't explain, you've to figure it out yourself.
It's just so different.

My Dream: Build up a Metal band.
My failures: I always wanted to be a scene, but when i actually told it to my friends, they gave me a choice, kill our friendship and be different + die alone, or be the same miserable who you are atm, so i had no choice.
Since i have a chance to thank someone who always supported me through this year on my weakest moments is Merli; Thank you for always being there for me when i need you.
Success: I'm not falling anymore, everything is getting better. I killed the one inside me, who tryed to avoid everthing, evading is no more an option.

Red - Let Go , basicly describes exactly the master inside me who i have defeated, finally.

This is The Story of me, just part one, coz i'm way too sleepy to continue writing at this time, tomorrow is a new day with new choices. Cheers.